One night while working the graveyard shift, I kept agonizing over the fact that I had to keep going to a job I didn’t like day in and day out. I remember thinking, “What am I doing with my life? I don’t like being here.”
As I thought about that, I began to realize all I was really looking forward to was retirement. Is this all there was going to be to my life? Working eight hours a day five days a week doing something I hated? What was my real purpose in life? Why was I here? I didn’t feel like I was fulfilling my true destiny. Something was wrong with this picture. I wasn’t happy. I was just going thought the motions, living a life that seemed very empty and void.
I remember thinking, “Why am I living?” Then it really hit me: am I only living so one day I can retire? Is that why I am working? What I was really looking forward to was the day that I could retire.
Great! But what comes after retirement? We die. We may not die right away, but we eventually die. The more I thought about this, the more it bothered me. I began to realize that if all I was looking forward to was the day that I could retire, in a roundabout way I was living to die.
That line of thinking had a tremendous impact on me. I had to do one of two things: I either had to make a huge mental adjustment and figure out a way to enjoy this job that I currently hated, or I had to find another line of work doing something I might actually like.
So there I was, living to die. This was my life, how exciting. I knew I needed to make a change. I began the process of looking for a way out. I asked myself the question, “What is it that I love to do? Can I get paid for doing what I love to do?” This became my quest in life: to find something I loved doing and would actually be paid for. Thank God that I found a career I love dearly. I no longer have to go to work because I love what I do. When you love what you do, it isn’t work at all. Start your search today for the job that God created you for. Now I am no longer living to die.
I now love to live.